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A BRAND NEW YEAR, 2011. You're here!

2011-01-01T01:20:00.001+08:00

Everytime at this point of the year, i would ask my friends, what are your resolutions?

But this year, i've finally set my 5+1 resolutions.

With goals in mind, you will find yourself moving forward in life.

I will not state so clearly what are the five+one....

but clues to it...

(1)Got to do with running stamina

(2)Studies

(3)Sports

(4)Career

(5)Stay Happy(The simplest task is the most challenging)

Added to the list: (6)To conquer my own fears (With too much thoughts, it hinder me from moving on too)

RABBIT YEAR. Is another cycle(12 years again).
One year older.. One year wiser...
May the people i know stay healthy and happy, May the world have world peace...
May i start everyday with the right attitude, be optimistic... and persevere during down times.

31-12-2010 ( Goodbye) - -- - - - >01-01-11 (WELCOME!)

Year 2010

2010-11-22T14:13:00.003+08:00

When the year coming to an end soon,

Ever think of what you are going to do?

Who you want to meet?

Things to accomplish?

Are you satisfied with it?

The toughest qns

2010-07-06T00:10:00.003+08:00

The biggest challenge...is not with others...but to fight against the emotions within me.

The qns that i would like to hear. But i'm not prepared to face it.

As a teacher

2010-05-24T13:46:00.004+08:00

As a teacher,

You wanted
your students to do their best
n.....to focus.
n.....to do lots of work
n.....to score well

When teacher herself cannot do that

Do not expect much....celebrate every success.... because each makes a difference.

I'm happy because you have shown improvement....... :)

For now, i must show a good role model. I must stay focus and finish Thursday paper.

Qns to ponder on...
How do you measure achievements in life? ANS: To make a difference in someone's life.

Everyone wants to be at the TOP. So do i. But i will be glad to accompany along.

PS: I nearly forget i have a blog here

-searching in process- click on me

2009-11-30T00:26:00.002+08:00

I just feel insecured once again when something is out of control and there is nothing i can do to save it from happening.

Keeping things simple is a wonderful thing, do not make it complicated, once it started...you can hardly end it.

I'm not emo at this moment. Maybe just this channel to share my thoughts with the rest who are reading this.
Turning on the radio, listen to the songs....peaceful night...without any noise pollution interrupting my thoughts.

I don't know...when things are uncleared...maybe due to lack of communication?
Do not assume that the other party feels the same way as you. Make things clear.
Before everything ended in bad way.

About Me?

Best friends, two key words need not repeat every now and then.
But i understand how important Best friends are in my life.
They are just like couples in life.
Hoping to have it till end of life.

Sad need not appear on the face.
You can feel it when you talk to me.'
I do not have to say much and yet you know something is wrong.

Meet up session lesser doesn't mean bonding is going down hill
It just give us a chance trying to maintain the friendship tgt.

I longed for a cozy family, but doesn't mean i have a bad one now.
They are always impt and played an impt part in my life.
They build on my maturity and confidence in me.
A complete family is impt to everyone...a motivation to go on even others are down.

Teachers have much impact on students' life
They gave encouragement and strengthen their attitudes towards their goals.
It will be a long term memory
to remember this route you once went through with them.

As age just increase year after year
Do we began to qns ourselves....
Did we achieve certain things that others have done it?

This is not the end.
Because the end i have yet to see.

Resuming back

2009-11-27T23:50:00.003+08:00

Seriously....what is emo......
EMO EMO EMO.....remove that in my life...i hate that..yet im living in it.

The days after my examinations...i went out n do the things i wan, i think are quite great...
but when i tot everything seems fine..another thing just pop out from nowhere.... n is something to be troubled about.

Alot of things gg on...alot of physical plus mentality strain.

I think..i've enough...n soon im letting go.

After all this has ended..i longed for sometime to do the things i want...to go the places i wanted to go.

These two days, i enjoyed abit more than usual. I brought the kids out....to TIMEZONE to mac to library... i miss melanie and withney!

Adding on, i went to my used-to-be student's house to check on his result. Though he didnt get fantastic result, i just hope to be there for him to choose the correct school. And i did.
Í AM HAPPY.

Just some thoughts to end:

Is scary to look around and see everything is not the same as it used to be...

Last post

2009-09-18T23:29:00.004+08:00

Hmm..i duno hw many pple are reading this..

but it doesn't matter...

i will most probably closing this blog soon..dun think will open a new one yet.

Thanks for reading all these while...

"I don't need this to express my emotions...if u know me..u will know me"

"I don't know how many people value the things i value..the kind of respect"

Take care friends~

HAPPY :D

2009-09-17T11:55:00.004+08:00

Last Saturday, attended Ruiqi's 21st bday after work. Spend the night at there as well.

Think it has been some time since i felt so happy and relaxed. Despite all the tiredness, i enjoyed myself alot. (with all the games we had at night...)

I think is this kind of gathering/occasion .... which will spark my life...

Updates

2009-09-07T23:01:00.004+08:00

Went for shannie's 21st bday...

A big place to hold a celebration...

Didn't stayed for long...but hope she likes the present we gave...

A singing session with my dear colleagues. I'm afraid of another singing session again...as it will mean another person leaving.

Met up wif a few of my TG gang members...after my night class. Thanks soek for the trust again...

Met up wif Jia xing and shahril....to celebrate my belated bday.

Thanks for the treat and a long chit chat session!

A big family we used to be...

Now is the time to say goodbye...

When will we meet again?

I will miss you Keith, Ling and Yen...

Happy bday to xiu. Although i was late for it, but still manage to take a few pics wif u gals. :D

With my gang(TG)

2009-08-23T00:02:00.003+08:00

Last Saturday, i celebrated my advance bday celebration with TG.

We went to 'ai qing hai', very familar? Cos i think on XF 20th bday, my another group of friends went there before.

It was always heart warming to see ur group of friends making an effort to meet up tgt...to celebrate one another bday.

Halfway thru....my frends send a note to the singers...(this is the moment...they are making a move to the toilet)...one of the Singer asked "Who is eunice"..i raised up n everything...cos i think my fren wrote something saying is my bday etc ba.

Doreen came, she stole my limelight, n became the center of attraction(haha..she so cute..i allow her to la..)

Not much of my own pics..cos i think i doesn't look nice....looked too tired.

Quick updates
Attended Shannie bday celebration...

Hope she will have a happy 21st. And i bet she will...

Attended class on fri, i told my teamate..i might leave halfway...and she agreed too. But somehow in the middle, i just feel like staying on. Still i took my bag and walked wif her to the bus stop. But...the guilt in me...just kept on increasing. At the end, i went back again? Sounds stupid.

Argh!!...why like that!! im just unable to tell...(my groupmate mus be thinking something weird bout me)

I just hope to finish the assignment in hand which is due nx week. Get this over, dislike the tutor, dislike the boring chapters...and boring classes...

SPECIAL THANKS AGAIN

Shannie came on Wed without anyone knowing. Suddenly my colleague called out my name(excitedly) when im facing the comp doing my work. Then when i turned around, i saw SHANNIE. Surprised turnout...and she sang bday song to me. Bcos she's unable to come over n celebrate wif me beforehand...cos she kinda busy. So i did msg her...to say im quite sad la...didnt see her coming back. So when i didnt expect anything more...this belated one really feel quite touched.

Just to add on a little bit more...on Eva, Kah Ying and XF who turned up at the last few hours of my bday. Before they came down, i did exchange sms wif eva and kah ying. But i didn't really feel anything weird. Except..how come Eva will be so concern about whether i eat finish or not ...or...whether the food is nice etc....when i told her im gg to dine wif family. So when i reached home...on the tv...watching MU match...:P eva called. Asking me to come down to the void deck now. I waited for her to hang up...n i heard some voices over the phone....there must be more than one person. So i went down to meet them, they started singing bday song...even my mum heard it(btw...just 3 storey high). Surprise surprise..after that they ask me to guess who's the next one who came...I tot that someone is hiding behind the pillar...but no...it shows a tortoise...-_-!...kinda scare of that..but no worries..my dad is helping me to change the water/feed daily. They came up to my hse and went home after that. THANKS!

Needed my sleep now...nights

Only COLLEAGUES

2009-08-17T23:52:00.006+08:00

times flies... another yr .... add one more yr to my age. Sadness.

I don't like bdays...cos there's expectations...n when is not met...theres disappointment..

I dun nid big pressie to surprise me....but ur msg.. to let me know u r still aware.

Well... Must say a big thankew to my colleagues... Surprise cake...that caught me off guard..

But daphne v funny..i wanted to go toilet...but she just ask me go into the room.... FREN....WHERE'S the setting....? Must off lights etc ma. BOO! HAHA!

This post..just on colleagues....next post will post my celebration with TG...

Funny colleagues...with all the funny actions...or is it my funny actions?

The following 2 pics were taken during Chui Siam last day at work..

One by one...everyone started leaving. As we know later part, more are leaving.

No matter who are leaving, who are staying...this has been my greatest moment.

Things will be different...

....This history can never be replaced....

Last of all, SPECIAL THANKS to Eva, XF and KY. For popping by at my void deck at the last few hours of my bday. And giving me little 'susan'(tortoise).

Thanks for all ur wishes, i will try to enjoy my life..i will work hard.

And continue to search for my prince charming.

Rest days over

2009-08-10T23:51:00.002+08:00

Rest day can be fun....can be enjoying....

I missed my ndp show... cos went for angel's bday celebration....

Was enjoyable..

Before that went around with parents....i've nv rest on a Sunday for a long time. Finally i had a feel of the crowd on sun... and i really wish Sunday can be longer.

These days are all about tuition...doing assignments...doing quizzes...
Please bring some colours to my life....

I'm not complaining....but requesting la...ooPs

Definition of 'it'

2009-08-04T23:39:00.001+08:00

Kind of disappointed with people recently..

Don't ask me why... is just a feeling...

If you make me feel this way...thats it...

I began to know the definition of true friends now...

Is not by saying..but by action...and i feel it.

You can have a quantity of friends...but there's no quality....

I'm glad i have them at least.

NDP

2009-08-03T15:15:00.000+08:00

NDP is coming~~~ cool! but no tickets this year. Sadded..

Expiry cert

2009-07-30T11:45:00.002+08:00

One of my tutor actually told us Unisim had a expiry date stamp behind cert. I really believe in it...and i told my groupmate who is sitting beside me, "I think i am going to quit." After that then know is just a joke la. Dots... -_-!!

Angel came to fetch me from SP that day, since she is fetching Huiqi from NP too. Appreciated lots lots. THANKS! This is when i notice, after sch at NP, will expect lots of traffic jam and lots of people waiting at the bus stop. GOD BLESS for tml.

Getting tired..

Hmm...Guess another colleague is going to leave the wkplace soon. Just enjoy the last few weeks le...

"Smile because there's tml"

((最近's fren)) not around

2009-07-27T13:48:00.002+08:00

Oh..our colleague cum friend...Mr Ezzat is going for reservist...

Oh 2 weeks without him in office...must be quiet....Hopefully by the time he come back will become
Mr Macho..

August is pack with things.. Alot of items to get in mind..alot of movies that i wish to watch...

no time..

First day of school

2009-07-21T23:53:00.005+08:00

Some pple really unstd...n care why i m nervous....why i m scare...

Some pple dun even care.. n think other opinions of me...

Some friends really showed their concerns...esp kim who msg me... angel...who offered to send me home after i poured my sorrows...my colleagues...who have been always supportive...

First day of school...esp is a night class.... v tiring... However, the tutor is fun-going and has a good sense of humour. I love the class....and im glad i have formed a group.

So another concern is forming another group on my nx fri lesson.( another module)

I'm not like anybody who can make friends easily... esp like u only want to form a group.. a motive. i dun like that. But after the class just now, i feel that everyone is like that. So other pple might think why i have this kind of thoughts..so you wont unstd until u have my characters.

I duno why i cant communicate wif some pple...when im talking to them...i jus dun feel good..n will feel angry...

I chose this path..and i will go on...n learn to be independent.

I appreciated those people who cares...thanks~

Updates updates

2009-07-10T00:44:00.006+08:00

Xf's 21st bday

working on weekend is the bad pt...as i'm quite tired to enjoy myself...

Everyone busy with their own life...now meeting up..is more like catching up what one another are doing...

Went shopping wif fang n soek today.... :D...finally i decided to drag myself out of the hse on my off days.. Lots of fun with them..though with lots of lame jokes..but those laughters here n there...NICE :D

i gotta miss my BADMINTON fren...soek gg to wk for a temp job on mon le... So pple...get ready to see me Fat again..

Sch starting soon.... im pretty scare... than nervous.. fear ba..new system..new envt...n to juggle between work plus tuition plus sch. Shall see hw i die.

I seems to be busy always
I have forgotten how to slow down
I have forgotten i still have a life

Nic's 22nd bday

2009-07-01T00:25:00.004+08:00

Without fail, we will try to meet up for one another bday...

Though was belated....but the meet up was still as fun... ALWAYSz! TG forever!

HAPPY BDAY NIC!!

My Specs friends :D

A gift that we still own it till now..

SMILES :D:D

I saw a star in the restaurant too!

CHATTING in progrESS!!

The joke of the day, i tot the number tag on the table was the cover for the camera lens...

Let's hope we will have a complete TG pic soon!

Asian youth game

2009-06-30T11:59:00.006+08:00

The 1st Asian Youth Games is also known as the qualifier for the Asian counties to the 2010 Summer Youth Olympics, also known as the 1st Summer Youth Olympics and which will also be held in Singapore.

Have been asking the people around me, whether is this the youth olympics that Singapore should be holding in 2010. coz have not been reading news alr.

Love the theme song...just simply love watching sports!

This is the time

This is the moment

We believe our dreams will come true Hand in hand

We strive to do our best Asia's Youth, we strive to be the best

CHEERS!

My final decision

2009-06-25T22:22:00.005+08:00

Have been missing in Action...

Im back...finally...

past week has been torturing...to come to a decision...
I gave up my MOE dream...and decided to stay on...and go for SIM.

I told my friends ...am i stupid? They responded that theres no such thing as stupid...
just that things will be different from now.

Don't ask me why... it is such a heartache to reject either one... I will move on.... even there's
thunderstorm in future...things not good... i will face it.

My answers during the interview...was really sux...most of my friends think i cannot make thru. But i do make thru. Something learnt...honest answers might kill at times.....but not all the time...

taken this on our last week bbq...

hmm...saddest thing again...phoebe is leaving us...EH EH EH...leaving us as in work.

My MRT-mate cum lunch-mate cum colleagues cum Good friend. Who is always there.. willing to help out others at work. Short 4-5 months, yet i know another amazing friend.

Things will be different without you around. But on our side, definitely wish you the v best and hope we can meet up as often..... (phoebe ah...i really mean often....not once in a yr ah...=D)

Holiday Camp

2009-06-15T16:46:00.002+08:00

Finally it's over. I must say i enjoyed the teamwork paired up wif Ling. The chemistry between us, allowed us to work hand in hand and deliver our work. :D great! But the tiredness accumulating for the four days, almost killed us. I wonder how Keith endured? :P

Today had badminton session with Soek again. After a month break? Enjoyed the sweating out session! Soek, jia you in ur project, ok?!

Running out of words..
That's all for now.

PS: "The trouble with the rat race is that even if you win, you're still a rat"

KNS pple do exist..

2009-06-08T22:39:00.004+08:00

Cant stand KNS people...

Why everyone have to tolerate with you...

We have pride like you do.

P.S. : A channel to shout out loud... No worries im fine.

Saw this quoted by felicia chin in i-weekly..

"Some people are born to be a Rabbit, others a Tortoise, there isn't a need to follow others and start running. At the end, making us tired and doesn't know what are we busy with"

Let's take a break

Breathless

2009-06-07T22:21:00.003+08:00

For a long time....In fact i don't know when was the last time i feel this way...

Was feeling very breathless when im halfway through the lesson today.
Still feel kinda breathless even when i reached home...

I can't imagine tml scene... GOD GV ME SOME ENERGY!!

P.S. : Trip cancelled

Roadshow again!

2009-06-05T20:04:00.002+08:00

Compared to the last roadshow that i had 2 weeks ago, today was much happening and lively!

Cos i have a group of colleagues with me.

It isn't lonely anymore. However, happiness wont last long la...im going back to the office over the weekend. Is time to face the battle by myself with the kids, i have already missed two weeks of lessons with them. Is time for my job to be DONE DONE DONE, Im coming back!!

So surprised to see shannie at the road show, haa...probably i didn't expect to see her. Was pretty shocked to see a familiar face in front of me again. Keee...

I guess 18th june, is something that i will look forward to...~

Without REST for the next few days..cos got to go back to teach the june holiday students from mon onwards. Oh My Guan Yin Ma. BUDDHA BLESS~

P.S. My leave gotta cancel/postpone perhaps...
p.s. Shannie oso made me realised how stupid i am again...Saddy

Do i really look like this?

2009-06-02T22:36:00.005+08:00

Colleagues commented that...

I don't look friendly at first...

Do i really look like this..??

Actually behind my stern face, hidden an uncomfortable cum nervous cum worried mood.
And i don't believe meet at first sight, can become so good, i don't like me being so FAKE to others.

And....when i'm tired, i will have expressionLESS too...
I'm not sad definitely...

I still trying to be like this, ya???

Sorry i don't have a born-to-be happy face. HAHA!

Actually i'm nice...really!

P.S. Actually i applied for a part time course la...nth to be happy about...

Finally a letter

2009-05-31T00:03:00.002+08:00

Just received SIM letter of offer for 2010 Jan intake...

Finally a letter from them.... need to pay deposit soon.

So i just hold it first...and see if there's any changes in my decision..

How is it being a student again??

"Life is full of decisions to make, and definitely i need a brave step forward.."

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Went for company "Roadshow" that was held at KK hospital today. Is nice to see husband accompanying wife to listen to the talk. :D:D Holding hand in hand.. anticipating the arrival of their babies!

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How good if im a child again...

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"如果人失去了梦想，也渐渐失去人生的方向”

Treasure ur love ones

2009-05-28T14:59:00.002+08:00

I just went to pay my respect to my ancestors..

as i couldn't make it for 'qing ming'.

Since young, i would follow my grandpa to this place...go around and put joss sticks..

Usually pay respect to those ancestors that i have never seen before in my life.

This time round, one more person added to it, my Grandma who passed away about half a yr back. Looking at the photo...someone who is so familiar, it makes me realised how fragile life is again.

My grandpa has shown what is love all about. He has already reserved a place next to my grandma. Awww... saddy....

Honest answer kills

2009-05-27T22:39:00.003+08:00

Have you ever been in a state that...you wish you didnt say those words out...

Even though that's the honest answer comes right from your heart.

Im being too HONEST.....

Honest answer kills....guess this round, for sure, is gone.

Come to think of it...

这一秒不放弃。。。下一秒有奇迹。。。

A day out with fang

2009-05-26T23:21:00.002+08:00

Today claim my hours back...

Met ai fang for my show...:D

Night at the museum 2 show, i wouldn't say is bad- was average.

At first we were wandering around, with our pop corns and drink in hands. -_-...since we were still early for show.

I looked forward to watching movies, thats part of my fav hobby, helped me to slow down my pace, sit back and relaxed. But cathay cinemas theatre seats at causeway pt...was not comfortable at all...

Halfway thru, when the show haven't reach it's climax, i nearly doze off.

After that, we went to shop around for my gifts to my students(tuition kids)
Is always difficult to get something for people, i don't have any creativity in that.
I like something practical, so while choosing a gift for them, i hope is something useful..and not too childish.
It took a long time to finally decide on the things...

Im happy and can't wait to give them soon...

To my students who will never get to see this...

"Must work hard, future is in your hands. You will appreciate my nagging one day"

Shi Xuan's 2*th bday!

2009-05-21T13:30:00.006+08:00

We went to Aglio olio, the food was pretty okay. And Kim bought a small bday cake for SX!

Though was only 4 of us, but i think the celebration should go on ya? :D

We left the restaurant around 9...as the restaurant seems like closing the day business at that time. We took a few pics outside the place. Familiar places...near DBS building. -_-

We enjoyed~~

A moment like this

2009-05-21T00:51:00.003+08:00

"The difference between school and life? In school, you're taught a lesson and then given a test.
In life, you're given a test that teaches you a lesson."

Happy 22nd BDay, Quack!

2009-05-20T00:10:00.004+08:00

Last Saturday, met up TG after work at Qin's house. After a day of tiring work...

飘洋过海。。。。then reach her house.

Thanks for preparing the food for us! :D

Since Qin has already collated the pics tgt.... I'm gg to steal the picture from her blog again..

That day, they talked about how long they have knew each other. How times flies...

How many "10 years" do we have?

Them

2009-05-17T23:02:00.008+08:00

Tiring weekends, maybe lack of sleep last night... im damn exhausted now..

On weekends, i guess every teachers would wish that there's this in the office...

or probably this as well...

Last week, Mother's day celebration...took a few pictures...

My pleasure to introuduce a few of my students...

(CLASS = FUN + LAUGHTERS + SCOLDINGS )

Ryan, a quiet boy has turn out to be a fun-loving one. :)

Siblings, Grace and Clarissa, innocent smiles...will melt your heart.

Uh huh...this few children...may give you a hard time at times... and i would seldom play with them. Sometimes i would wish the lesson is abit longer..so that i'm able to play with them. :)

Naughty student yet makes up my day. His laughter will make you forget about everything at that moment and laugh along with him. :D:D

The words that i always use in class...

"CLASS, are you DONE DONE DONE?" :)

Clarification

2009-05-17T00:22:00.003+08:00

The previous post...was for an ex-colleague by the name of Kim..

Not the kim that most of us knew.... i didn't state clearly. My mistake.

Just joined TG for qin's bday celebration at her house.

Meeting TG is always an enjoyable and relaxing one...

Thanks for preparing the food for us. :D

TG, im still waiting for your answer...

For you, kim(igenius)

2009-05-16T00:12:00.004+08:00

Words are unable to express my feelings right now.

But hoping you will find your dream job soon...

you will be missed...

As we look upon...we wish the very best for you.

Being rejected again

2009-05-14T16:58:00.003+08:00

OMG...rejected by NTU again..

for those who know me..should know what course i applied for...

No worries...i expected for the outcome too...

Share with you all this...

Be a bit more positive man!! COME ON!!

2009-05-12T23:59:00.004+08:00

this post is to myself..

come on be positive...if not i think i will go to no where...

"A smile can really kill a lot of cancer cells..." created by me.

You know..sometimes when i tried to post something....i will become emo...

Is it bcos of the color of the blog...??

But seriously i want to be happy.... life is too short to be sad all the time... whatever happens...i know im still lucky.

My friend, quacky qin...told me..i too chiong in my life....should try to slow down my pace...

Am i?? perhaps...i think too much...is good to think... probably that is not working on me...and unnecessary stress has been added.

Anyone to share my joy? I want to travel!

be calm...

2009-05-09T21:12:00.004+08:00

Greatness of mother

2009-05-07T15:50:00.003+08:00

As we look back on our life
I find myself wondering...
Did we remember to thank her for all that she have done for us?
For all of the times she were by our side to help us celebrate our successes
and accept our defeats?

Looking back...
Now we are all grown up, and started walking away from her...
Did you ever think of...
She's the person who hold ur little hand and started to walk...
When you started to argue back...
She's the person who teach you to open your mouth and started learning words...

THANK YOU-

I received SIM lecturer email...i wasn't enrolled to this year july. Cos..of the overwhelming response...

Everything was delayed...
Delayed..
Delayed..

But he says i definitely have a place in 2010.

The kind of feeling, no one will understand...

Show me the way

2009-05-07T10:47:00.002+08:00

"Silence...doesnt mean i have nothing to say...and you are correct..
Saying but not doing doesn't mean im scare to do....
Sometimes, when you are doing...you will think twice of the consequences..
And if that day comes, thats when i decided to leave...
I'm not dumb."

im Stuck...Stuck....STUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel so lousy...

my students...

2009-05-04T16:24:00.002+08:00

Upcoming sun is mother's day..

This week work...is more like a mother's day special...

There's this paper...for students to write on it...

"If i could give anything to you, i will give...."

Deepest impression...

No. 1 student ("I will give you money to buy gameboy games for me")
No. 2 student(" i want you to become millionaire")
No. 3 student("I will love you till the life ends")

:D:D:D

It makes my day...

a journey to remember...

2009-05-01T01:02:00.002+08:00

Life - is like a journey in the car.. we always look forward to a never ending route...
We will tend to look at the side mirrors if there's any obstacles...
or at times we look at the rear mirror for the past memories we all shared...
I think is time for me to stop by the side...
to think about my destination...
Do you know how it feel....when you run out of petrol.... i felt like this now.

Farewell Shannie!

2009-04-30T16:48:00.003+08:00

My outing wif them

2009-04-28T00:26:00.003+08:00

A week ago.... we sang 'when we hold on together', without any sadness added to it...

A week later...which is today, we went K-ing again.... but this time round..we sang with emotions..

Lizhen, geo and shannie...left/leaving the company..

Pictures to be updated in later part..after i compile from all of them..

I think everyone is sad, when we have so strong bonding among us... the moment when shannie cried when geo and lz wanted to leave first.... i tried as hard as i could to hold back tears...

Minutes later...my fav daphne... picked the song 'peng you' to sing. I sang along with her. Halfway through...i felt that something is wrong, cos i cant hear her voice anymore. Looked at her...shes crying. :(.... den shannie also started.

Argggghhh!!...sad sad sad....i oso cried le...but i try to move away from them...so that i wont sobbed too much.

Deep down, i could only say... a short four months... but i found amazing friends...

Postpone my tuition...went dinner with them... at PS...
It was a good one with lots of laughters....
We went arcade too!....

Ahhh!!...hw i wish everyday is like today..

I know time is ticking away...and wed is here soon.... Deep down...wish Shannie, Geo and Lz... the very best in their future...

Something to add...

i haven receive any news from SIM, and i doubt the chances r high anymore, can anyone tell me whats my future...? :(

Thanks for those pple who have tagged on my tagboard.... This is the moment i feel so heartwarming... didnt koe theres u who have been reading my blog... I will be fine when i have clearer vision for future...

從昨天　到今天　還有明天
感謝老天讓你們陪在我身邊

how i wish i wk harder last time...

2009-04-24T23:42:00.002+08:00

when....

you are being left behind at the junction...

looking left and right...

knowing that every side is a stop sign...and you cant move on...

is terrible...and frustrating at times..

dun show me attitude...and i dun like tolerating it...when i duno whats wrong...

Smacking day

2009-04-23T15:02:00.002+08:00

Thanks soek..

Today we went to play badminton again...

Usually i wont attack so much...more to defend...
but today is different...even soek has to say...dun be so harsh la..

One way to release my pressure.....

but she dont mind..cos she koes im releasing it.... :)

Tell me everything was a dream...

2 news in a day

2009-04-22T00:07:00.004+08:00

Ytd, we had enjoyable K session together...

Today...became one of my saddest day in the wkplace..
Pei Shan, our shannie is leaving the workplace soon.

For a better future, she should leave.
But few of us just cant hold back tears. I did shed a little...
JIA YOU, Friend! Teacher-to-be!

One day can turn things round..

In the evening, Manager hold us back for a short meeting.

Cutting down budgets = another round of axe

Im mentally prepared but i think at the moment whoever goes(or even me), we will still be sad..

I don't know how life it is like without this colleagues around me...

Giving me...

Lots of Joy..

Lots of Laughters..

Each passing day...

Our Mr. Ezzat

Memories stays...

Why do i have to go through this again...

My time in there is running out...S.O.O.N.

Let's cherish the last few days of it... :_(

CHEERS TO FRIENDSHIP!

Proudly present...

2009-04-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

That makes us united... you need pple like them to keep ur days occupied...

But duno....how long will it last... Future is a question mark (???)

That massage day...

2009-04-16T16:37:00.002+08:00

filling up the form before the "Massage" begins...

At that time, i felt my shoulder aching and neck cannot turn...

Roam around and wait for Xiu to finish her massage.... but i didnt get to see her... and off i go...tuition time!

Our past time~

Be optimistic

2009-04-09T23:23:00.002+08:00

Wanted to go exercise wif soek today, but my shoulder haven recover yet. So i asked whether she wana to go dou feng ytd...she drove me out using her dad's car. We talk things out a little... now she knows whos the person i m refering to in one of my post.

"When stress pile up, anything could happen... Treasure the pple around you..."

At first, she allowed me to drive around the car park. Then surprised she allowed me to drive from West coast back to my hme later.. Shes the first passenger :) I think alot of trust is needed when shes considering whether to let me drive...thanks pal!

Read the newspaper today, read that theres protesting gg on..... in Bangkok.

Hope all my friends will be fine and enjoying themselves now...

Disgusting pple!

2009-04-07T00:15:00.002+08:00

Just now went for a body massage with my TGs...

OMG...'My first time' ...after the massage..the Sales person psycho us like mad...intro us lots of packages. Lucky we have a way to turn them down...except xiu..

Didnt know what it is all about until i went to try today... Im pretty conservative..so feel weird for the first few minutes of the massage...

Now my neck hurts quite alot...cos last night slept on the sofa, didnt lie in a good position...woke up today and feel the aching. Then went for the massage, guess she worsen my injury. Sad.

Hope can recover soon...

EXHAUSTED!

2009-04-06T09:34:00.004+08:00

After work on sat....cab down wif kim to join the rest at Pasir ris costa sand chalet for

KAH YING 21st Bday...

In the cab, i already feel my energy drained up...

Feel like zzz....

Im trying to keep myself alert for the whole night...

Thank goodness have angel to send me home.... if i were to take train...i can foreseen fainting halfway.

BUT angel and huiqi wanted to have a mahjong session with their friends first.... While watching them play, i really wish im at home...and sleeping at that moment.

After 3 hours of sleep...back to work again. Weekends was hectic + not enough rest...makes my Sunday terrible. I tried to endure thru...and trying to make the class lively a little. Halfway thru, my stomach ache badly, lucky there's a colleague inside with me.

After work head home straight.... lie down on the sofa immediately and fell aslp. Bro woke me up to eat...i ate.... and slept again. I slept till today morning...

How tired i am...

Why...

2009-04-03T23:34:00.002+08:00

Today then i discovered so many things...

Im so sad cos i seems so late to realise..

sorry fren..wasnt by ur side to help u..

I didnt know u r feeling so terrible..

My tears fell...and today wasnt my day...

Hope you can seek a treatment soon.....

Exercise session

2009-04-02T14:02:00.002+08:00

I received morning call from soek...at 7 plus?!?! today...

We planned to go jogging first at gombak stadium before proceed on to play badminton.

I asked soek to go run first.... and i met her after that..... i reduce the rounds to 3, since badminton session will take another hour.

At the end of the session, we perspire so much that our whole shirt were wet.

Nice game~! =)

Time to take an afternoon nap soon...

Hope i can survive thru for the next few days....

KNS

2009-04-01T10:09:00.003+08:00

These few days i still received calls from a few employers, which i sent out the resume few months ago. Theres this call from the law firm, looking for junior secretary. I was aslp, when i received this call. Then unknowingly, i told him i have a job already. My mum later on ask me to call back and ask more. I did so. wah kaoz... his reply is so yaya, "i tot u have a job already, then i strike ur name off, is not hard to find an employee now." I tell you, the feeling sux....feel like scolding him upside down! My replied was " Is ok , you go and find others." So what you are from law firm, the svs is KNS lousy!!!!

Tell me...

2009-03-28T22:15:00.002+08:00

LONELY RANGER....

IN THIS FAST-PACING WORLD....

So tIrEd...

I received my driving license.. :D

but whats the point? no Car. But at least i'm certified to drive.

A Session with Soek

2009-03-26T23:51:00.003+08:00

Ytd left earli at work...

Met up soek at gombak for a jogging session...

The sky turned dark...when i'm reaching the place...

Damn suay i must say...But good runs later....with soek as an accompany partner....

After that went nearby... Indian Muslim stall.. I've a craving for TOM YAM soup now..:)

Just now tuition time...student asked me...have i gotten my license...
She name out a few car models...and asked which i will buy...

Children being children....so innocent...

CARS so ex in Singapore...

My answer was bicycle...:D

Oh hectic days come again..

有话敢敢说

2009-03-24T22:37:00.002+08:00

I've so proud of my frens...

They are the ones who always dare to express their feelings...

I should learn from them...

When im happy, i wish to laugh out loud...

When im sad, i wish i could cry...

When im angry, i wish i can scold out...

Etc...

There's are so many things that i hold back to say... think too much of how others will feel about me..

Just be MYSELF...

Being....

2009-03-23T17:45:00.003+08:00

A meet up session with EVA...

Halfway through the conversation.........

She discussed a topic with me..

HAHA...

Somehow...

Being too independent isnt a good thing, ya?

OOPs...

I shall learn to be Dependent...

DAYS

2009-03-19T21:12:00.002+08:00

Today soek tell me something....somehow it makes sense...

"To overcome your fear, you need to face it"

But she says this so that i can overcome my fear towards dogs.

i think it makes sense for everything.

Thanks soek for acc me to sim for interview.... ;)
And eva for troubling her over my lappy...

hais.... guess have to save up for a lappy too..

MONEY MONEY MONEY needed...

TG gang gg Bangkok soon...
Eva gg Bangkok and HK this year too...
So nice so good...so envious..but i have no time no money...

People are asking me...why i haven receive my confirmation at wk...
but somehow i dun wish to receive it too..
cos alot of considerations need to think thru..
when i feel i cant commit so much when sch starts....
and i feel insecured to stay in that envt....

I just receive a call from Prudential...the person who interviewed me that time..
but that was managerial post.. but shes persistent even after a few mths...
to meet me up or something...most probably to psycho me for buying insurance policy or to becum insurance agent.

PLEASE GO AWAY~

soek lets go for a run soon................i need a destress session after such a long while

Ponyo

2009-03-17T23:05:00.002+08:00

Student's mum send me the link to watch Ponyo...

i have this student...who is about 2 yrs plus age. V cute....she likes dancing... and she always sing and dance for me. So cute...

PONYO!~

sadness

2009-03-17T00:39:00.001+08:00

Eva wanted to help me add ram to lappy..

but now it ends up my lappy cant run anymore...

Thanks to Bro's 'help'

TOTAL SADNESS! :(

Priority

2009-03-16T22:46:00.003+08:00

Nothing is more impt than staying healthy...

Feel that im no longer that strong le.. no longer 'aku kuat'(i'm strong in malay)

Diarrhoea whole day....

My mum says i looks pale these few days...

Am i showing signs of deteriorating? HAHA

Take care of your health when we r still young...v impt...i spoilt my health le...those were the days~~

Meeting our little doreen

2009-03-16T12:27:00.004+08:00

Meet up session with TG again...tgt with our little doreen....

Look at my face expression.... i don't really know how to carry a few months old baby... haha

How amazing life can be, she have grown up this big already...

No group picture for the day, cos the center of attraction is on her...HAHA...TG knows what i mean.

Ytd i received BBDC cheque... returning my membership balance fees. When i saw it, i burst out laughing.... I have not receive a cheque amount as little as 30 cents.

But good thing, i dont need to pay anymore.

Whenever train passes bt Gombak, i will miss the days i had my driving....the days when i feel like banging instructor's car. I don't know when will be the day i can have my own little cute car, driving around Singapore or even back to Muar.

Own a car in Singapore is EX!

Aspirations

2009-03-12T00:03:00.003+08:00

I dont dare to dream, bcos i scare disappointment...

I dont dare to hope, bcos i scare there wont be even chances...

But i wonder how pple stay motivated without knowingly unstd what they want...

Somehow something keeps you moving..

I wish that i could travel with my friends, but i know i have to think about work side too..

I wish of going out with people, but i have to work on weekends.

There are something you take in life n u gotta lose some away...

Everyday is just like a time bomb...ticking away....

you will never when it will explode...

until the day come...

What makes kids so adorable, becoz they r being themselves....
When you grow older....it might not be so anymore...
Sometimes you wish u can be just u...
But is tough..

I wish i could travel to some place far away from here...
Somewhere where there's peace..a big green land...a hut... early morning can see the sunrise...
This is what we call enjoy life..

Some thoughts before i end my day.
Good night people...

Sick

2009-03-10T23:09:00.003+08:00

Today had a terrible day..

Feverish for the whole day...trying to endure for trainings...

Even boss notice im unwell...

On the way home, i feel like collapsing... lucky i make it thru.

Thank my colleagues for showing concern..

When i reached home, i had a quick dinner..den trying hard to eat med.

Now slightly better... and wonder tml should i go work.

So many things incomplete..i should go...

Now realise when one is sick... is very terrible.. tears will auto fall...cos enduring hard...
I should have another round of med before i goes to slp later...

Words for you

2009-03-05T23:13:00.004+08:00

Sorry student...

I think i let you down...

Maybe is time... for me to move on and let you change a teacher...

I'll bear the responsibility...

"Education route is tough... you gotta believe in yourself"

The Ups and Down in life

2009-03-04T22:30:00.004+08:00

Life couldnt be as good like this.. i've achieved one of my dream...

I passed my driving test~!

( Owning a car is not easy...few yrs down the road perhaps)

Juggle between work plus tuition plus driving.. is very tiring. At least i have completed something now.

On the test date itself, instructor was late.... during warm up session...mount kerb in circuit....still don't get the one round quarter thing....i go by my feel in the end. I told myself this when im having the test...die jiu die...i gotta try my own way for S course. Well...believe in urself.. in the end i did it.

Awaiting for the result, is like a student waiting anxiously for their certs..

After that i met Eva and Kim up...cos we agreed to submit uni forms tgt. :)

Eva couldnt join us for long, so Kim and i decided to go somewhere...

Never know we will end up in NIGHT SAFARI.

I enjoyed the night...though tiring... It was raining heavily an hour before we went in.... but but but.... the rain stopped when it reaches 7 plus!

I want to get new clothes... if not i'll be wearing the same clothes over and over again....

Kim do you still remember how the male zebra attract the female zebra attention? HEE

One or two days before the test... my working days are not as smooth....

I did wrong things...i wasnt good....

Im still trying my best....

Service line is not easy...

If there's a day i have to leave... i never regretted to be part of here before...

They changed my character somehow....

Huiqi's Birthday...

2009-02-23T12:05:00.002+08:00

Not easy for all of us to find time and meet up.... for a celebration....
Everyone efforts make it possible....

"Money might make you wealthy, but friends makes you rich."

Great night out...

Stress....anxious pile on...

2009-02-17T22:57:00.003+08:00

What is turn one round one quarter.... my instructor always tell me this when i went into S course.... think i will mount kerb when the day comes.

It was raining heavily then... what a suay day.

First time went into circuit... the road is really narrow...especially turning etc...

I don't know what outcome it will be... im trying my best.... wishing and praying hard...

Eva thanks for volunteering to acc me for my test date...duno if u will come... cos i oso scare will disappoint you... Well again... trying hard...

****Very tired at work....nightmares and signs of crying during slp.....is it showing any signs of pressure and insecurity????*****

PICS up for CNY visiting n fang's bday celebration

2009-02-12T11:43:00.002+08:00

This pic appear in my company's monthly newsletter...

They visited my house too :)....

Happy Birthday Ai Fang!

Pic kope from qin's blog...cos i lost the link she send me..no choice..but to take from her site...:)

Im back to life...i wan to stay happy.... being sad...is too miserable...
Life is too short for that....

Tiring Day

2009-02-08T00:07:00.000+08:00

Met ex-coll(s) ytd...had good dinner at magic work and realised theres lots of politics existing which i didnt notice that time. One after another left... My usual lunch clique left only one. Hope she can survive still... Jia you.

Today classes resume after 3 weeks of break.

The 2nd lesson i had, really spoilt my day. one/two problematic students...is okay to be slow... i wont mind... but i cant stand a personal character to be bad. Dont wish to elaborate.
Had terrible headache after the 2nd lesson... v pain... so much so that i wasnt enjoying my lunch break. Bearing the pain....deep within.

Still, i went for Fang's belated Bday celebration at BP Plaza. =)...
Time flies...Money Spent...But Friendship is here to stay.

After that, they came to my hse for CNY visiting...shall blog the pics up one day...tgt wif the one we took at bizi's hse last week.

Duno how day gotta bring for me tml... foreseen a busy day...

In sch, we always try to go against a teacher.. Now i really experience it... and it was bad.

Thought of gving it up... but people... im still trying...

rest days

2009-02-08T00:05:00.001+08:00

Ytd left work in the afternoon and met up soek for a jog at gombak..

but damn suay.... its raining and the stadium was closed..

we have to loiter around while waiting for the stadium gate to be opened.

JOG ok, very nice to have her accompany..as a motiivation to run. We completed 6 rounds..

Feel great to sweat it out after such a long time..

After that we went for our dinner... an indian muslim coffeeshop near gombak station...
Yum yum...Tom yam soup...im craving for it...

Went for tuition just now... my students asked me have i gotten my license...she went on asking which car am i buying and started naming the cars model..

Kids nowadays...

My answered was.... bicycle...

Based on my salary now..im glad i can take train la... Im contented although i kp telling pple i wan own a car.

2009 new stuff new entertainment

2009-02-05T15:07:00.002+08:00

Started to do things...which i thought this life will nv touch/go

(1) MAHJONG....omg...since the days at chalet...intense training...makes me feel that this is actually quite fun too.... which i never felt it all along.

(2) Ytd went CLUBBING with colleagues. Yes, clubbing....but...im not prepared at all...my dressing my bag...OMG....can sense that im not ready at all. But well...since i go along..just want to see around n experience it. OMG, is beyond my imagination. I tot i could have a seat to sit...n watched them. Im wrong. DANCE?!? nv in my dictionary de leh. Even how hard my colleagues tried to dance in front of me, with their beautiful dance styles?!?

Sorry to have spoilt the night mood...if i really had...

i too tense...too serious look....too nervous....too Not confidence enough....

i must relax, be smiley, be calm, be confident. One day.... i will...

hope 2009 will change for the better.....

CNY~

2009-01-31T22:59:00.010+08:00

Seminar's update(30 Jan)

Ytd had a company seminar.. handling so many kids, but thank god there r other few teachers around...

my main task? To handle the kids in the kids rm, while others busy with registration and helping out while the seminar was going on.

imagine a ballroom about 40 over kids, few maids and parents around.. the place was chaos...haha.. when i tell the story..i must use shout de....

But thankfully, it ended. Since we were at clark quay, i asked whether they want go for a drink. Few went, in the end, we ended up going chinatown to sing. Enjoyable night with them.

Since we have nothing much to do after singing, took Night rider back and reached hme at 4am.

MUAR update(25-29 Jan)

The journey was consider a smooth one, not much of a jam. Johor checkpoint have change for the better. Much spacious. On the way there, it was windy n raining. But managed to see fireworks at night. After midnight, went around wif relatives to Muar temples... prayed for better year ahead.

Next day, went to the nearby playground. My cousins asked me to sit on the higher seat swing...OMG...they must be mad, they want my head to be hit.

MSIA trip cannot do without motorbike ride...

One relative just moved to a bigger house, so went there for the first time.

Gatherings...

Cousins' children...

Took this when we are having our wanton mee by the road side..

(Left pic) Cousin in green top, is pregnant with 2nd child, to gv birth by nx month.

I wrote a list of christian names for her to choose. Don't know which she will pick lehz..

(Right pic) Found my mates ... :) A collection by my cousins

Drove around the estate for a short while.. I think my relative oso suspect my driving skills..no confidence in me eh...jia lat.. fail ding le... but well.... i must be confident...n stay calm.

Before we leave for Singapore, We went this place to eat....is quite famous for their food... few Singapore actors/actress faces was pasted on the wall...

The last 2 pics taken... i purposely dragged my bag into the pic... to show that this was the time im going to head for Singapore le... clever right? Err... :P

Is a year since i last saw them, the 2 cousins have really grew up... Teenagers to be...

Once again im back...

Before CNY

2009-01-25T12:04:00.002+08:00

Before the clock strike 12 midnight, i should be in Malaysia by then. Yeah =) Fireworks~~

But the thought of the queue, waiting and bus journey, will definitely drain me up. Cos i always dont feel well when im on the bus...

What so special about this year? I don't know this is the XXth time we get to go on CNY EVE. Not that i remember, probably the first? And i dont have to study for exams~

This time round, i stayed abit longer, 5 days 4 nights. That was planned quite some time ago when i was out of job. When i come back from this journey , got to be busy in helping out with company's seminar at one of the hotel.

Ytd went out with frens from this company. PS and DL. We attended a morning seminar...Swesen's breakfast, Pool, Movie. After that i've to rush home to have advance reunion dinner with family. Very happy to have know them... fun-going pple. Going to have a paintball session with them soon. ;)

Over here got to emphasis something, few days ago, i met soek(kathleen) at bb interchange~...she brought camera for me to bring it to Msia after i requested. So nice .. thanks~

what else...??

Is always good to take a short break away from Singapore. Everytime i came back from there, i learnt something. So shall see what i bring back this time round. Time flies...really flies, seems like it is just days when i last saw them.

Is a new year, i told myself not to look back again, even im jobless now or future.Memories will always be there, but i think is just an experience to gain.Conquering the worst part of my 2008. When i just turned 21 then.

Thankful for those who offer help...besides friends....Student's mum....Ex-Coll....

For now, im going to slow down my pace... and enjoy this short 5 days....

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE~! =)

Pre-celebration for KIM

2009-01-18T19:41:00.003+08:00

Talking about that night...on the boat(Riverboat)....celebrated a very special birthday...

KIM's 22th Bday.....:)

It is located at Marina South Pier. Thanks to Angel for driving us back after that.

It was a stationary boat on the river, but it was enough for few of us to feel uneasy and have to take some pills. Im okay with it, just hope for a stationary plane too.

It feels good to gather with friends... after all the school days...

For now, im working..

PS: Im curious about how St. John island looks like..

2009 chalet with TGs at holiday flats

2009-01-05T21:55:00.010+08:00

DAY 1, met friends at BP.... intended to take taxi, but didn't know Kevin(qin's bf), was driving us there.

When we reached there, Bizi's has already checked in for us. Her parents were there. :)
Bizi's dad was kind enough to drive us around, to her house, to buy our dinner etc.

Soek was patient enough to teach us.... one of our mahjong advisor. :

Now we are independent to play by ourselves. Though not professionally.

Bryan(Bizi's bf) joined us at night.

DAY 2, woke up at 9 plus, and left around noon time to shop for our steamboat food at White sands.

Our used to be class T-shirts

Bryan was very good in cooking, while he do the frying and everything, we were guiltily playing our mahjong.

We decided to go for cycling after nic and sam(nic's bf) joined us.

Bizi commented the above pic is the picture of the year.

It was a windy night~~

I rented this bicycle for free...!!

I didnt want to play this....seriously not, im afraid of heights....im holding so tight to it... but cos of my sweaty palms, i keep shouted them to stop...WAHAHA.

DAY 3(Steamboat cum TG gathering day)

Qin did the frying for us. While waiting for others to join us, Kevin, Darrice & David...Nic and Sam( Few of them didnt stay for the night)

With everyone's help, we get to settle the food very soon.

The couples' battle!!

They rushed down to get ice creams for us once we heard the ice-cream man rang the bell for the second time.

Went to pasir ris park to take a walk after our meals...

Friendship is here to stay...

DAY 4(CHECK OUT DAY)

Was suppose to check out on Monday, but since few of them schling..working...decided to end it on a beautiful sunday.

What we do with our left over toilet paper?? You can tell....:)

Thoughts:

We look forward to the chalet..for very long. Our last held TG chalet was 4-5 yrs back, hope the next one wont wait too long. Had lots of laughters and fun throughout it. Unbelivable TG can last this long, and hope it will last forever. And thanks to TG's BF(s) for helping out etc..

Indeed, i forgot my unhappiness during this days... hope ai fang can join us for the next one.

HURRAY~...let's look forward to a better tml.:)

2009 Resolutions

2009-01-01T11:14:00.003+08:00

Yawns, after 3-4 hours of sleep, after Angel sent us home from ph's hse. Thanks Xf for sending us there. Though i waited at Yew Tee taxi stand for about 45 mins, looking at people...looking at cars...looking at the uncountable traffic turning from green to red...red to green.....from hair wet till dry. HAHA. And shes finally here, and we took sometime to reach the petrol station to top up.

Upon reaching at PH's house, most of the people were there already. And glad to see some long-time no see faces. The countdown was bad, the tonning was bad... I don't feel is a new year... I even fall aslp on the massage chair in the middle of the night. But woke up soon after. Looking at them playing Mahjong is all i can do.

When i went into Xf's car, i did ask them about 2009 resolutions. And they say i asked this every yr. Did i?

2008 Regrets...

(1) Not able to continue work at that place
(2) Not able to go into NIE
(3) Not able to have any goals in mind

2008 Success
(1) My Bday Chalet turned out to be good
(2) I graduated with a diploma
(3) I get to know a few new nice friends
(4) My first-ever overseas trip by PLANE :D

2009 Resolutions
(1) A better vision of future
(2) To get my car license
(3) To do well in job
(4) Economy Stability
(5) Enrol into studies
(6) Everyone i know is doing well...and healthy

Till then to update... im gg off now... meeting my TG for our CHALET... :)...it will be another few tiring nights.. Hope it is fun...

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

This is the time, i've to leave unhappiness behind...
and continue another chapter of my life....
I will overcome it... and i will...

Cant sleep

2008-12-29T02:00:00.002+08:00

At this time...cant slp again...

v tired.. will try to slp after i finish this...

Hope angeline do well in her exams..which she have worried for weeks..

Hope eva is enjoying now in Japan...

Hope everyone is soundly aslp now...

One who has too many principles in life, can be really tiring.....really tiring.. must get rid of it.

2008 ending le...2009 is a worst yr.... yet we still have to be like happily countdown for it when we know deep down, it will not be good for us.

Time wont stop for you... so do what you wish to do... before we close this year chapter...

Days updates!~

2008-12-27T23:12:00.004+08:00

-Interviews-

I think prudential one...is quite funny though.The interviewer find me too young and not confident enough to manage 7 secretaries. Indeed it is, based on the interviewees who went. (Much older and professional) But pls, take a close look at my resume then call people down. Is just another wasted time n trip. Now in hand, got igenius and SLS job. Whichever i will take up, hopefully i will still able to give tuition, cos i dont wish to give up.

-Driving-

Hmm, i think started to know the feel of it, just a little uncomfortable with the S course. And must remember to check blind spot...(*i must remember, must remember*) Today chatted quite alot with instructor. He can be nice if he wants to, maybe he just wanted his students to learn from their mistakes...so tend to be v strict at times.

-Friends-

Must thank soek and xiu for acc me down for interviews. Esp to xiu, no second word of rejecting. Time and again, she asked me not to think about the unhappiness. Some things, some people this lifetime also wont face, but we get to face it. We must know how to overcome it. Even i didnt get any job soon....i know i have gain something. Friendship. ALL of You pull me up, and help me one way or another... makes me move on.

-Xmas Eve-

Spent time with Ruiqi, Shi Xuan and Kim. Had a great time over at Sushi Tei. We played

(Ming Xing Quan/ Hai Dai Quan) We are very open to the game...as in certain action quite sensitive, but we still go for it. :) I think is through this interaction that makes up the night.

I don't think we have to TON to say that we really celebrate some occasion, i think is what u all do even few hours of time. I have enjoyed.

-UpComing-

Will go for another round at igenius on tue, and from thurs-sun(TG CHALET)

If nothing crop up in between, i should be gg on these days..:)

And whats more, new yr eve hang out day~

Sentosa trip on 19/12/08

2008-12-21T15:02:00.009+08:00

Pictures copied from qin's blog...

I love this pic, nice... Soek, qin and me had a hard time rewriting a few times..

Showing few highlights of the day..

What each of us gotten from our xmas exchange..!

Taken this pic using qin's Polaroid camera, is cool eh..and all of us like it alot..
If you take a closer look..our background....is the sea...

While waiting for soek and bizi to change, we went to take pictures! and they say i look like the statue.

I enjoyed myself too!~ On the way to vivo for our dinner..~

-Ended-

A little details about the wedding i attended yesterday. Is hosted at Stamford hotel function room. Very grand definitely, but somehow i don't like the atmosphere. Maybe im not close to my cousin.

And very what lor...most people talked to my brother only, act like im invisible kind. Their comments were only..i looked like auntie jennifer. An aunt who passed away this yr. -_-.

I think is kind of weird, i go to my father's side, i looked like someone...i go to my mum's side, i looked like my uncle. As if my parents are them.

Got la, my uncle and aunt from Australia got talked to me, and they knew i have been retrenched. Don't like to explain this kind of thing, yet you have to mention when comes to meeting relatives. I will upload the pictures when we get pics from our aunt, probably a month time or so? not sure.

The seating arrangement just sux. My brother and i were separated from our parents. We are sitting with other aunties and uncles who liked to boast kind. Maybe my brother more suave, so they talk to him more. :P quite a few complimented him. You know hor.. when gg out wif someone so outstanding, you just feel left out.

Well, whole night im being who i am, i don't like being fake. So what you have the $$$.. call me anti-social if you want to... so what?

虽然我们没有你们家来的富有。。。可是我们穷的有骨气。。
这是在你们有钱人身上找不到的东西。。。

Full of nonsense

2008-12-18T22:37:00.003+08:00

Today had my driving lesson again....

duno why he got so much to say, when i think im improving le..

He says my moving off not v good la etc... what the hell... in front suddenly break...( L-plate car)..
then i wanted to go when's my turn... but i scare he got lots to say, so hold back a little which causes moving off not smooth.

Good things nv say... bad points say so much..so demoralising to drive.

Then when he get down of the car, i go and on the accelerator..brake eetc there the light.
Then i forgot to off it, he says why i on it...he says he can only on it. What the hell...last time he asked me on when is night-time..now ... #$%^&*

He asked me why a feel times, i didn't ans back.

Sometimes just feel like banging his car.

trying to stay optimistic

2008-12-16T19:32:00.004+08:00

要坚强。。。要努力。。。

Meeting up with ex-coll(s) on coming Monday, as one of my ex coll is leaving. Guess she's unhappy with her work. Still, respect her decision..hope she will do well after that.

Wed - Sg VS Vietnam (semi-finals leh...must support Singapore)...i koe alot of pple will go diaoz seeing this... but well we are Singaporeans...should support...channel 5 7.55pm
Thurs - Driving lesson!
Fri -Sentosa Trip with TG :)
Sat - Cousin wedding!
Sun - Not yet decided
Mon - Meeting up session

just got to watch out on my expenses... i dont have anything now.. but time.

take me away

2008-12-16T00:28:00.000+08:00

Im going C.R.A.Z.Y.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Spilt personality.............!!!!!!!!!!!

HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!

Ytd, shed tears.
Today coincidentally received Joreen's msg.
On and off, ex-coll will msg and see hw im doing.
Thank you~

emo nights....intended to go slp..but here again..im blogging..

too free to do blogging every now and then. Is a bad sign.

I like this song quite alot as well.. 笑忘歌
The lyrics are as below

I listened to this when i used to drag my foot to work..

those words in red..have more impact on me..

when u gals get to listen to this song..maybe u all will koe better.

屋頂的天空是我們的放學後夕陽也都會是我們的
不會再仰慕更多了唱一首屬於我們的歌
讓我們的傷慢慢慢的癒合明天我又會是全新的 OH ~
青春是手牽手坐上了都不回頭的火車
總有一天我們都老了不會遺憾就OK了傷心的都忘記了
只記得這首笑忘歌那一天天空很高風很清澈
從頭到腳趾都快樂我和你都約好了
要再唱這首笑忘歌這一生只願只要平凡快樂
誰說這樣不偉大呢

自己和自己大了一架想都想不通方正就是這樣了
不會再流淚更多了有多少錯誤重蹈覆轍
有多少苦痛還不是都過來了想起來甚至還會笑呢 OH ~
青春是人生的實驗課錯也錯的很值得
就算某天唱起這首歌眼眶會有一點濕了傷心的都忘記了

etc etc..

Tomorrow is just aimless day...sadness...
Day after day... pple will start to qns...u haven found a job yet ah? what if this drags till half a yr? dont be surprise..
Actually there's interview at Ubi and somewhere deserted...decided to gv it a missed.

Im just afraid of stepping out again.. :(

00:36am emotions

2008-12-15T00:34:00.002+08:00

Tears welled up in my eyes again...

MISSES~

A day out with Xiu

2008-12-10T18:39:00.006+08:00

Though no pics to show....

I shall use simple words to describe then...

Thanks xiu for accompanying me for an interview at Keypoint. The position was as 'Admin officer'. The outcome of it?

(1) Interview last for less than 10 mins ( The shortest i have ever been)

(2) No required of Resume and Certs needed

(3) The advertisement was shown at newspaper and internet

(4) Few Qns asked by interviewer:

(i) How old are you...oooo you are so young...

(ii) Where did you stay...ooo so far...

They should have see my resume first before fixing appt with me. I just feel is a wasted trip down.

Two words : Gone case

Xiu showed me the way to Haji lane. Sorry for the trouble to walk around with me under the hot blazing sun. Nothing much along the street, not so nice as i thought to be. Had my lunch at Bugis.

We thought we are going to shop around, but both of us don't have the mood for it. Decided for a movie. But bugis doesn't have it. So took a bus to MS. Before that, we did go into the Guanyin temple for some prayings. We bought two movie tickets with the show name 'Bolt'. 96 minutes of show, i almost fell aslp.....xiu caught me sleeping. She woke me up. :P

2008 is coming to an end very soon. This year, god has given me the bestest chances wherever i go to. ..

But he also taken it away from me.

Probably i have negative thoughts, but nothing could be as bad as this in my 21 years of life. Im in the middle of no where. No one will understand.

But something positive... im still alive.

I finally booked my driving test date...

Support Huiki's online shop

2008-12-07T14:15:00.005+08:00

Huiki has started her first ever business...

Here to promote her online shop...

Do give her support...(She's waiting for your purchase)

LINK : http://beautified-closet.blogspot.com/

Jia you friend...!!!

Soek's birthday

2008-12-05T16:01:00.006+08:00

Ytd... was a packed day.. went place after place.

Don't want to type as much... but will emphasis the importance of the day...

SOEK's 21st birthday...

Hope you will be happy forever...

"Friendship is not friendship without trust, without it I walk alone."

Whats the most scary thing?

2008-12-04T23:51:00.002+08:00

"The S.C.A.R.I.E.S.T thing is when i found out my confidence is gone..."

Can someone tell me what future brings for me...

Just living another day aimlessly...

You won't know...

Unless you are in my shoes...

坚强的微笑。。。需要维持多久。。。

Will you be there...

Reality hit me again

2008-12-02T00:29:00.002+08:00

At this point of time..i woke up from my bed, writing this post...can't slp, no motivation to slp..

You must be wondering, sleep also need motivation. For me, the thought of tml is just another wandering days...it just slows me down.

Last Sunday, parents asked me to tag along, but i rejected. After they left, im alone at house, my mind full of those saddened moments, finally at 5 plus in the evening, i gave my MUM a call and informed them i will go grandpa house later for dinner together. It was a long time since i last saw my Grandpa. (He came back from US for my cousin's wedding in dec) This time round was different, grandma was no longer by his side. He's a person of a few words, though we have communication barrier, but i was close to him since young, cos whenever 'shao mu' period, i will go around with him in the temple to do the necessary prayings. It's a warmly night to have dinner tgt with my relatives and grandpa. Hope he stays strong... At his age, he deserved my admiration and respect. I am glad that i went...

Last thoughts:
"Just when i thought my injury has heal...i came to know the cut was too deep and has scar..."

Back to life

2008-11-29T23:05:00.004+08:00

On friday...met up Kim and Xf for a drink at Clark Quay...

Xf kept yawning from the moment i sat down with her....am i really that boring? Haa..

Here are the drinks, but i didnt drink as much.... but im drunk after a few slips. Im such a failure.

After that went to a nearby hotel to pee...OOPS....

then photoshoot session...

This is the first one which we took... i told them my head is big, i dont want to stand at the front.

But it turned out to be weird, like suddenly a head POP up at the back.

Asked for another take, this time round xf sacrifice, she went right to the front, but my face was covered. -___-

Take 3, which kim says is nice. Xf says nice cos my head in this pic is the smallest. OHHHHHHHHHh...saddened...but quite true also la...

Took a cab back...Cough cough, is ex..! ;)

I think this week i got to book my driving test date at BBDC, i dont wish to go alone lehz...

How How How, anyone?

Went Plaza Singapura today to meet up ex coll, had lunch and watched movie.

Finally im back to life... but i know i got to be more realistic now... i need a job... [badly].

Im back

2008-11-25T22:30:00.003+08:00

I have a lot of words to type... I even wrote it on a piece of paper, a week after the incident happened. For your info, im axed.

Its time i should rearrange my feelings again and start afresh.
I went for an interview today, recommended by Kim. Today is the 1st interview that i answered so honestly and sentimentally. Honestly = I don't wish to find a job which let my brain go dead
Sentimentally = On and Off throughout i spoke about D** stuff. No matter whats the outcome, KIM, thanks for recommending when i needed most.

Recalling, the period of going through the restructuring exercise, was terrible. It was then i realise i don't have much friends. However, is over, i don't wish to bring it up again.

A simple girl in a world race...
i faced a job which dont fit my interest...
i faced a job which was going through restructuring....
Tell me whats next? Bring it on...

I swallowed all the unhappiness...
The confidence needed to be back...need to be back...
Just now i plucked up my courage to send emails to the person who recommended me into D**...and my ex dept boss..and received the reply from the first which i mentioned. My tears welled up again..

((Hi Jia Ling

Thanks for sending me this email and Im glad to know that you have not regretted joining D** and has since picked up and move on.

Ive also got to know about your plight from Joreen, Lyllie and May last week and felt very sorry for you...

It was unfortunate that the restructuring exercise took place at this time when you have yet to receive your confirmation. Nonetheless, you should take comfort that feedback from your team members were encouraging. They mentioned that you have been a good team player with high adaptability and learned the rope pretty fast! They felt that it was a lost to the team and the company and were rather upset that you were one of the affected colleagues. ))

Joreen was my guiding angel in my work...
Lyllie was my direct sup...
May was my direct sup's head..

Cos im still going through probation period, and i think higher management will think aiya this ger, bochap, get rid. -_- Prove you wrong, you axe the wrong person! ROARS!

FRIDAY night with SL frens

2008-11-01T23:17:00.003+08:00

With stress accumulating at work, i dare not think so much, just hope i do everything correctly.

My colleague told me, 'Healthy stress is good'

Fri night after work, went for driving lesson. Then met Eva and solutions lab friends at clementi kbox. We sang till about 12am, then took a cab home with Eva. Nice one~

We are not colleagues anymore....

But friends to be...

Pictures speak a thousand words

2008-11-01T15:44:00.008+08:00

Deepavali

2008-10-27T21:46:00.003+08:00

Today wasnt another resting day.
Got up at 9am and get ready to go BB to gv tuition class.
I always told myself to let go of tuitions, cos of work load adding on, sometimes i really feel very shag. No matter how determined i am..
My strength is im sentimental, but it also became my weakness. I cant let go.
After lesson today, my student's mum asked if i have any appt. She asked me out for a lunch with her children. She treated me lunch at West Mall.
Awww....
Sometimes i hope i have more than 24 hours a day, so that i can still teach them while i can have sufficient rest.

I just hope my student can do better this time round..

Hurting comment

2008-10-26T23:04:00.002+08:00

此刻的心情不好受。。

难道我有这么差吗？

开始又在意别人的话。。。

Great days

2008-10-26T00:00:00.007+08:00

21st October 2008, was our first meeting session with our little TG. Doreen is born! CONGRATS DAVID AND DARRICE. The baby is cute... very cute. She's like a little shinning star, my other friends kept taking pictures of her. :)
We stayed in KK hospital ward for about 9 plus. Then headed down to the Mac to have our dinner. Reached home about 11 plus despite taking cab from BP.

Fri night was indeed a tiring but enj0yable one. A night out with xf and ky. She borrowed car from her dad and drove us out. When time stroke past 11:15pm, i was resting at the sofa to wait for her call. When i almost fall aslp, my hp finally rang. Xf is here!

On the way to fetch Ky, we past by a traffic junction, and xf told me that she doesn't know there's a traffic light or something.... Lucky no oncoming cars. My face went like this..----> :S. So dangerous leh...i didnt buy any insurance lehz!

When we reached Ky's place, Xf was trying very hard to find the way to the runway(AIRPORT there)

Ok check check, ear piece ready, gear ready...let's go! We played SHE songs during our whole journey!~

We went to the runway, but too bad...we doesn't get to see any plane taking off or landing.

That's disappointing. ..

We felt thirsty and hungry, so went to Changi Village coffeeshop to have supper. Only muslim stall was opened. We ordered 20 chicken meat satays...not nice de...too oily...have a weird taste. Nevertheless, we still finished it.

As you know, ky is camera shy. You all will not get to see her picture here. :P

After 4 plus a.m. We make our move to the carpark and about to leave to look for a petrol station as petrol was running out soon. While Xf's was checking the street directory for directions, Ky and me observed how those " ah guas ", stood there while some cars kept u-turning to see them. Don't know lehz, whenever i see such scene. I feel very sad and 'gan kai' feeling.

Fall aslp on the way back ...

I reached my house at 7am. Slept at 715.

I miss those hang out days!~Thanx Xf for the ride!~

A met up night wif urban mama

2008-10-17T23:57:00.003+08:00

Friday night...cozy night... though very tired.

But decided to post it up asap, before i change my mind not to blog again.

Hmm, quick update, this week been doing trial ran at work. Keep figuring the cause of every numerals, trace back etc. Till thurs, i could feel my energy completely drain up. And yes something has confirmed, my company is moving to changi business park at expo in 2010. What a luck. Though i love aeroplanes, but also don't need to go till there ba. HAHAx...but well still quite sometime away. Anything can happen in a yr's time.

Whats good about work life, you have extra money to spare. What bad thing about work life you have no time to spend.

Let's spice up our life.....have to...must to...

Having few days of leave nx mth, is a compulsory leave to take. So ya taking it, and since it is an unplan leave, so no plans for holiday. Just rest at home.

I saw my NPCC senior that time, she worked in the same company as me. So we gals going to meet up for lunch soon. Last time we were quite close, cos joined competition tgt etc. Life flies too fast..too scary.

Met up wif urban mama just now, finally. A long awaiting one. I was very drained up after work, was onli when i called her when it was meeting time, i could feel my soul came back suddenly. A familiar sound from the other end...

She's nice, she bought me a donut, and she passed it to me when we met up. Very weird uh? got what motive?! HAHAZ

When we meet up, she asked is it i grow taller. -_-.

Too long nv see le la, so u gauge wrongly la~

This ger, too long never meet, we kept chit chat while we were walking. Then went to a shop in MS to shop for her dress. Spent quite some time at there...but i think was worth it, choosing something she likes.

Went makan sutra to have our dinner. Shes starving~ So we ordered quite a number of dishes.

NICE MEETING SESSION~...MEET OUT SOON~

Hope everyone i know is doing well now....