Reality hit me again

At this point of time..i woke up from my bed, writing this post...can't slp, no motivation to slp..

You must be wondering, sleep also need motivation. For me, the thought of tml is just another wandering days...it just slows me down.

Last Sunday, parents asked me to tag along, but i rejected. After they left, im alone at house, my mind full of those saddened moments, finally at 5 plus in the evening, i gave my MUM a call and informed them i will go grandpa house later for dinner together. It was a long time since i last saw my Grandpa. (He came back from US for my cousin's wedding in dec) This time round was different, grandma was no longer by his side. He's a person of a few words, though we have communication barrier, but i was close to him since young, cos whenever 'shao mu' period, i will go around with him in the temple to do the necessary prayings. It's a warmly night to have dinner tgt with my relatives and grandpa. Hope he stays strong... At his age, he deserved my admiration and respect. I am glad that i went...

Last thoughts:
"Just when i thought my injury has heal...i came to know the cut was too deep and has scar..."